Yesterday (Day 5) felt very full with work and a birthday party in the evening. Originally we had said we were going to keep it as a simple ordeal, but it turned into a much bigger shindig. In the end, it made for a later night wherein I had to finish up my reading and Headspace much later than I would have liked. As such, I scrapped posting and combined with today (Day 6.)
I had a rough night sleeping last night. Had a bloody nose, which was very out of the ordinary. I could count on one hand the times in my life I have had a bloody nose. I would have thought it was just a dream if not for the tissues in the garbage. I tossed and turned all night, and ended up waking at 5 AM or so, and getting my Jesus the Christ in. I began to plan to go walking or go to the temple, but it would have required me to go in to our room where Trish was sleeping, and I worried about waking her. Needless to say, I didn't walk until this evening, did Headspace this evening, and did not get my intellectual pages in for the day! Hopefully I can make some up on Sunday (tomorrow.) Overall, it feels hard to keep this up. When I miss something--like my pages today--my black and white thinking kicks in wanting me to bail on all of it. But that's the very thing I cannot do. This isn't about being perfect everyday but about the long-term consistency of sticking with something--especially when it gets difficult. I'm proud of my self for getting this far. I was also able to get to the temple this afternoon after all. Bonus points!